Lately I've been hard to reach, I've been too long on my own. Everybody has a private world where they can be alone...

Don't ever let no one tell you, you ain't beautiful...

I love this song, I love Eminem! Lol..his lyrics make me excited about life for some reason.

I'm in a weird mood today. A good mood..I really think that's why it feels weird. I haven't been this happy in a while. I'm really excited at the prospect of a fresh new start. I have put in my resume in at 12 places in San Antonio. I've also dropped my name in the hat for 5 jobs in Austin. I feel like out of these 17 places, 1 of them HAS to give me a job. Right?! Well..we can only hope this is true.

I really need to move on, I feel stagnant in this place. Either way, new job or not I have hopes and dreams again. I lost those for a minute. I still plan on going to petroleum land management classes in the spring (so I can make bank). But, I need something else like rightnow. I need to be with my Tejas girlies, with people that love me. <3

Okay, okay..so people love me here too (to know me is to love me). I need to be with more people that actually care though. I know it will be a huge adjustment, I'm ready for it. I've been her for 24+ years..in the same place. Living on the same piece of land, with the same people, same issues..good and bad. I've been in the same job for almost 5 years. This month on 10/26/11 I'll celebrate my 5th anniversary with this company. Don't get me wrong, I'm stoked about 5 years. I'm more than stoked about the prospect of moving to Texas though. My kids are excited as well. Riley is the only one that really understands so far, but he wants to go.

I started guitar lessons Saturday night, I'm not a savant or anything like that. I've memorized 5 chords, I can't successfully switch between those chords yet. With the help from my awesome guitar teacher I believe I can though! :)

I'm having fun with my life these days. Out are the days of stress and depression. I'm back to the days of fun and laughter. I love being able to love life again!

Crazy things have happened to me in the past month. Isn't it weird how quickly things can change? Thoughts, emotions, even circumstances. Sometimes I feel like I'm juggling and balancing on a tightrope at the same time. One wrong step and everything falls...you can't hold on forever though, right? I only hope all those things fall into the right places this time <3